AN OPEN LETTER FOR YOU, WITH LOVE

dear YOU,
i am too tired of calling you kuya. i feel so awkward each time
i have to call you kuya just to end our topics about ourselves.
it seems too awkward everytime i say, "tumigil na ka kuya rex!"
just to stop you from saying you love me.

i have been too tired of pretending i don't care. i am too tired of acting as if i am not bothered with your existence when in fact, i am too affected when you're not around. i am too tired of forcing myself that what we have is not for real. that you don't really love me. i am too tired of making myself believe that there is nothing going on between us.

I knew enough how much you have loved me.. and i know as well that you're still loving me in silence... that we are still in love with each other, silently. i have been too afraid that if we came to love each other, what we have wont work that way it is before..

i am too tired of trying to not to admit that i love you.. of just trying not to love you. when in fact... i am actually here... drowned with you. too in loved.

i hope we can still work it out.

i hope i am still not too late...

love,

wendi