life cycle

sometimes you'll think it's over. or it isn't right. or it just simply does not satisfy what you're expecting. maybe you're just too weak to face the consequences, or just to afraid to fail once more. but then you'll realize, he's worth the pain. he's worth all the sacrifices and he'll worth the trust. and so you'll fall. you'll give the trust which you've stocked within you for the last three years. then you'll be deeply engaged in the so-called love affair that you had. and then, you'll be simply delighted with the i love you's for almost ten times a day. and then you'll again realize the art of waiting. you'll be summoned to answer the question of until when. then you'll realize, for the nth time, you have just trusted again--stupidly. but you'll deceive yourself. you'll say it's okay but deep within. you're tired. too much tired to fight once more. to hold on. to say i love you ten times a day. to say you'll wait forever. then you'll realize (because realizing is your favorite hobby), it's really over and you just can't work it out anymore. then you'll go back to the process of moving on. of forgetting. and of doubting again.

life is a cyclic pattern of regrets.
it happens.
once.
twice.
sometimes even thrice.